Wonder if anyone reads this blog? Ray said that he reads my blogs. Is he curious enough to read the other blogs too? ut that doesn't matter. He says that I should begin a blog about him. The other day he took me buy surprise. Not complete though. coz i know i'm like that. He said that he wants to know how I feel. How do i tell him that? I'm afraid of my thoughts. I'm afraid of my feelings. They may hurt someone. They just might be misunderstood. Like Shawn. I don't know how I feel with anyone. Ashwin, Ray, Savio now. Savio! What's wrong with him? Why did he tell me about the dream? I mean he keeps looking into my eyes he says. Makes me feel like laughing but at the same time my heart is in a kind off mess. Now i have to block this blog!