The address says alieseternalquestions. But I haven't asked any questions till now. Had a nice day today. Unexpectedly! The things i wanted to do never happened. And that leaves me a little worried. It's like you can't really plan anything in life isn't it? People sometimes just expect too much of you. Or is it that they know you better than you know yourself. I'm always afraid of saying things, lest someone might stumble on this and then they may want to know what i meant. then do I lie? I have to update the other blogs. Wanted to talk about Aly to someone. But then I can't do that can I? It's like expecting too much. It's now my problem I have to think about it mysefl. And then I wanted to call up Ash. And that didn't happen either. I hope he's ok. If i don't love him why would I get so worried abouthim. He would have told me if anything happened, right? Why am I saying this? He never says anything. I have to ask to find out. Why has it got to be me who's asking? Isn't anyone else wondering like me? There they gush out the numerous questions. I wanted to write something funny. Why funny? I'm not disguising my sadness, am I? Sadness. What is it? More like disappointment. What the hell is this I am saying? I know I keep saying that i shouldn't depend on others. She said she feels selfish to cry on my shoulder. but that isn't the problem. isaid that i feel wanted I feel needed. When will I feel like that with a boy? Someone who's more than a friend.

How do you expect me to show you what i fell about you? It's not fait. neither to you nor to him. Yet i can't afford to let you misunderstand. I wish I could be myself. Trapped and looking for new places to go to. Yet hoping the horrid lonliness doesn't follow. But then like a bloody shadow it keeps getting stuck to my heels. I think I've lost it. But then it was only a momentary patch of sunlight. Is it that cold places make you feel the frost more than ever? But here I can afford to show it. What if I go back, step into sunlight and then find that the shadow is now within me?

Not happy with how the blog looks. But now am sleepy. What a ridiculous thing to blog about! But i haven't read any rules on what to write in a blog and what not to. Sleeping now!

Yet another load

I've hardly gone thro one when the desire to begin another creeps up. what is it with me? Got tired of the same blog space decided to create a new blog. Just In the end all are the same. Feel like writing. Ray asks why i ask so many questions. That had to come up. At some point of time everyone asks me that. Eventually it will be shut- up Alie. Now I need to write. Oh no Paille is outside. Ok got him in. just in case you didn't know Paille, is my landlady's cat. Extremely fluffy and cuddly. But at the same time, highly irritating. But anyways he really knows how to get on your good side by rubbing himself against your leg like as if you are the best person in the world. I wonder what his intentins really ae when he does things like that. This post seems to be going nowwhere. Ask me what it's underlying tone is. I mean every thing written has a pupose, right. Now I have to wonde what this is supposed to carry. Let it be. Let me not think about that. I want to write something humourous. where the hell is my sense of humour? Lost in this land of no laughter! Now just why did i say that? Ridiculous Alison. But come to think of it something has been on my mind isn't it?